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Walking through cancer with Christ

Faith Walkers


Sarah Stevens

“At some point you get tired of the constant pressure of fear and sickness and yuck.

That’s when cancer begins to implode on itself. What would be a wasting element becomes an agent for the blossoming of eternal things.

Faith, hope, love, and peace always triumph over cancer.”

My Life B.C.

Changes, so many changes! My life before cancer can only be described as one of transition. My husband, Nick, and I have four children and, one by one, they were all beginning to leave the nest. Each of them were in college in one way or another (yes, four at once – yikes!). It was a hugely exciting time for me, not one I would describe as an aching empty-nester. I was working part-time at my church where I organized volunteers for various needs like meals and house-cleaning for people who were sick or having surgery or having babies. I worked a lot with cancer patients helping provide for their needs.

During this time, we experienced a great upheaval in our family. In January 2008, our two middle children were caught in an avalanche while climbing one of Colorado’s 14,000 foot peaks. Our 23-year old son survived, but our precious 20-year old daughter was buried. It was almost six months before we recovered her body. I took a leave of absence from my job, and our family began the long, grueling process of searching and waiting and grieving. At the end of June, we finally brought our daughter off the mountain and laid her to rest. (You can read about this at http://www.heightsoffaith.org/ .) Within the following weeks, our other children left for their colleges. It was then I went to the gynecologist to find out what was going on with my right breast.

My Diagnosis

When I went for my first-ever mammogram in October 2007, three months before the avalanche, it was because something was unusual in my right breast and I just wanted to prove it was nothing. I’ve now come to love and deeply appreciate those who care for cancer patients, but at the time of this first mammogram, I thought the doctors were only confirming my opinion that they were trigger-happy and suit-scared. Not seeing anything specific, they recommended I have a surgical biopsy to identify what might be going on. I honestly felt they were way over-reacting and told them I’d be back in six months – planning to carrot-juice my way out of their clutches. Needless to say, in six months I was caught up in the search and recovery of our daughter. Throughout the year, my right breast continued to enlarge and began to feel tender on the outer edge. Still, I never felt a lump.

When I finally returned in September of 2008, on my 49th birthday (!), for a second mammogram, I agreed to a needle biopsy. A week after, on a late Friday evening, the doctor called with the report that it was indeed invasive ductile carcinoma, stage 3.

My husband and I sat in his office upstairs – stunned. There was simply NO WAY we could be facing such a thing as cancer at such a time. We were crushed. We sobbed and wailed. The pressure was unbelievable. We couldn’t breathe. I felt I was suffocating. Right away we pleaded with God to not let it be so. We knew His strength was great and sustaining - we’d experienced it first-hand that year - but we just didn’t want His strength right then, we wanted out.

We then called our families, specifically our sisters, who are strong believers in the goodness of God and had stood with us through the demands of the year. They wept with us.

One thing I know the Holy Spirit led me to do right then was to “give away” an unbearable burden to each sister. To the first one, I gave away the thought that perhaps our daughter would not have died if I’d let the doctors do a biopsy the first time; perhaps our kids would not have gone on their trip if I’d already been in treatment. To another, I released the thought I couldn’t bear that my arrogance the year before may have been thumbing my nose at a caution from the Lord of Hosts. To a third sister, I let go of the fear that Nick might have to be the husband of an ailing, dying wife. To still another, I gave away the fear that death was coming again. Each sister agreed to take their load and pray it through, to bear it for me. This was huge – a huge thing – for me. Slowly I began to see and think. After that, I never worried about those things again.

My Healing Journey

  • Record the scriptures and words the Lord gives you – post them on your walls and mirrors. Repeat them over and over. They ARE life to your body and health to your bones and breath to your spirit!
  • It’s okay to go to Him and cry – His comfort is so, so sweet.
  • This is a journey – you WILL feel better.
  • Love and laugh to the greatest extent you can every day. Do good to someone else as much as you can.
  • Have reasonable expectations - 3 or 4 hours of mindless reruns is NOT unreasonable, nor will it cause you to lose your edge.
  • Think of manageable projects like quilting, the NY Times daily crossword puzzle, a daily walk.
  • Go out with people and do things – even if you don’t feel like it and can’t participate much.
  • Allow people to help – bringing meals, cleaning your refrigerator, walking with you, reading a book aloud, going to appointments, cleaning your house, even running your errands while you sit in the car.
  • Books – Crazy, Sexy Cancer Tips, One Bite at a Time cookbook for your family and friends, God on Mute (can’t recommend highly enough!!), and lots of John Grisham novels!
  • Make ahead, or have a friend make, the Magic Broth in One Bite at a Time. Very tasty and nourishing.
  • Understand, we don’t know what any day will hold, but He does. Don’t be afraid of any day.

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This song is "Call On Jesus" performed by Nicole C. Mullen from her 2001 CD, "Talk About It" © 2000, World Entertainment, a division of World Music Group, Inc.

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